Somethings Changed

I dont know what has...but I do know that something has drastically changed over the last couple of months. As I told earlier, in this duration in which I have changed places and jobs. And I am now back to blogging after nearly six months. Thats a long time.

Coming back to my original point - something within me has changed slowly and gradually over the last six months. I am still trying to figure out what has. I am trying to get interested in things, which used to be of interest, only now, I seem to be struggling to just even get interested in it. It even applies to music. I am listening to same music as I was before six months, but now I dont seem to enjoy it so much or like it so much. But, I clearly remember I could derive much more satisfaction and relaxation and could "into" it, previously but now its not there - its just not there. Its such that it nearly scares me. Its almost as if, I am a strager to myself. What has changed ? I dont know...I am trying to figure out.

Is it my new job which has caused this? This new job is defintely much more hectic and pressure-full than my previous job. Its draining me out - that I can see and feel. Its so strainfull and stressfull, that I just want to sit back and eat, drink and sleep the rest of the time. I have also put on some weight - maybe I should just admit it - I have put on a LOT of weight. This whole thing is really scary. Where does this all lead me to ?